Dear N -
You embarrassed me on Saturday.
I don’t know why you turned up to the club like that. I knew it as soon as I saw you. Glazed eyes. Feeble smile. Voice slightly too loud. I was embarrassed.
Did you notice I avoided you? Did you notice I did a lot of talking to other people? No, not to make you jealous. I was embarrassed.
I wouldn’t dance with you, no matter how much you tried to drag me onto the dance floor. I was embarrassed.
And I shouldn’t be. I’m not with you anymore. I’m not part of your life. People know I’m free.
But I was embarrassed. I was embarrassed for you. And I was sad too.
Please realise what you’re doing to yourself. Please realise you’re alienating people.
With love. Of course.
My ex was a big drinker too. I don’t move in the same circles as him now so I don’t know if he’s still drinking or if he’s sorted himself out. I suspect the former but I pray for the latter.
Alcohol can do such terrible things to people.
My ex was/is a severe alcoholic. He’s in rehab right now, but I know it won’t last long. It’s sad when you have to give up on people.
I was a fool for love once. Regret it but learned from it. Never did it again. Perhaps he will to.
To flip this away from him…you have exactly the right attitude, sometimes this stuff happens to make you realise how much better off you are. I’m glad you were embarrassed and not pining.x
Just catching up on your blog posts written while I was away. Sounds like you have moved on. Good for you.
big love to you xx
Just one more step on the journey to ‘yup, I made the right decision’. Sorry, though. Must have been crap for you xx