A follow up to this rather sad and miserable post.
N and I had a chat on Thursday. I was positive. He seemed to understand my point of view. We made plans. Plans to change. And yet…
And yet this weekend, it just didn’t happen. There were tears (mostly mine) shouts (mostly his) things broken (ours) and bags packed (mine).
I’m staying with some friends at the moment.
I haven’t left N. I haven’t broken it all off. I’ve moved out to give him some time. To give me some space. For him to start making the changes he needs to make. For him to think about where he wants to go, what he wants to do.
I know he loves me. I know he hates himself and the way he is at the moment. I also know that he can’t solve it all on his own.
So I’m sleeping in an empty bed, hugging a pillow, wishing it was him.
hope things start feeling better soon. x
Not good news.
I hope it works out for you.
Much love ‘n’ hugs
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i’m really sorry, hope it all works out x
Urgh – I know the feeling. However, I think it’s the right decision. Otherwise these sort of issues, if bottled up, have a habit of coming back ten times worse later one.
oh fuck a duck love that sucks! good on you for broaching it though x
Poor nuttycow! Many hugs from me, and hopes for a good solution.
Oh pickle. I’m with Jo. Sometimes the only thing that can make things clear is a little bit of space. I’ve been there, as have most people I suppose, and if you’re meant to be together you’ll work it out.
And good God, your copyright notice is possibly the longest I’ve ever seen. Every time I try to read it to the end I nod off.
Big hugs to you, sweetie pants. If you need to borrow Bert for warm, hugging purposes, I’ll DHL him. No sweat xx
Well done for being brave enough to give him space. That is the right thing to do. And to give yourself space as well.
Hope you’re OK.
xx
Poor you. Horrible time, horrible situation. Despite not being one of nature’s optimists, my experience is (and I’ve had quite a few decades of it, I’ll have you know) that it will all work out for the best. So love and hugs and chin up.
I hope things work out for you… giving each other space is always a good decision.
*hugs* hang in there!
I’m so sorry. I hope that you being gone will spur him to make a change.
oh Gawd, have hardly been around. I am SO SORRY!! And now panicking that I can’t work out this form of blogging you do so will never get in to work out wha has been happening. DO HOPE THINGS IMPROVE. Be calm, and don’t rush into anything (a wise old bag says) xx
So sorry to hear your news. Be strong, watch lots of crap telly and drink a lot of wine. It’ll all be ok.
BM x
Oh. Hugs hugs hugs.
Hey – not visited for a while (nothing personal, just not been on the ‘Net much).
Sorry to hear things are in flux. You must be churned up.
I hope that where there’s fog you will find clarity, and where there’s worry you will find hope and reassurance.
Love ‘n’ stuff x
Ah, the lovely feelings of heartbreak. I’m going through it now. Though it was a mututal break, it hurts just the same.
Stay strong.
I’m sorry to hear this. I hope that things turn around soon.